Behind the Bastards
CZM Rewind: How The Zizians Went Full On Death Cult & The Zizian Murder Spree (or Exactly How Harry Potter Fanfic Killed A Border Patrol Agent)
01 Jan 2026
Chapter 1: What is discussed at the start of this section?
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Have you ever listened to those true crime shows and found yourself with more questions than answers? Who catfishes a city? Is it even safe to snort human remains? Is that the plot of Footloose?
I'm comedian Rory Scovel, and I'm here to tell you Josh Dean and I have a new podcast that celebrates the amazing creativity of the world's dumbest criminals. It's called Crimeless, a true crime comedy podcast. Listen on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts. I know he has a reputation, but it's going to catch up to him. Gabe Ortiz is a cop.
His brother Larry, a mystery Gabe didn't want to solve until it was too late.
He was the head of this gang. You going to push that line for the cause?
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Chapter 2: How does Ziz's living situation impact her mental state?
And obviously these folks like- A blog mixtape is nasty work. Yes, yes, yes. And I'm deeply grateful. We'll have source links and everything in here. I note when I'm kind of like pulling something from something directly. But like I'm very grateful to the maniacs who put together these like documents that have helped me piece together what's happening.
Because really, if you're coming in as an outsider, if you weren't like embedded in this community while all this crazy shit was going on, it's kind of impossible to like ā get everything you need to get, you have to refer to these interior sources. Um, it's just the only way to actually understand stuff.
No. Yeah.
I, as an outsider, I, I don't know what's going on. I don't know. I don't know where it's going. I for sure don't know where it's going. It's going, we know where it ends. We know where it ends. A member of Congress shows up at the library in Vermont that the US and Canada shares because a border patrol agent was murdered there and like threatens to take over Canada.
And that's all like, there's a degree to which you can kind of tie heightened tensions between the US and Canada to the murder of this border patrol agent, which itself is directly tied to the fact that Elisa Yudkowsky wrote a piece of Harry Potter fan fiction.
I love that it all goes back to that.
Yes, yes. It all comes back to bad Harry Potter fan fiction.
I'm investigative journalist Melissa Jeltsin. My new podcast, What Happened in Nashville, tells the story of an IVF clinic's catastrophic collapse and the patients who banded together in the chaos that followed.
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Chapter 3: What are the implications of the 'vegan Sith' ideology?
Honestly, it feels more like a high-level prank than a crime. Who catfishes a city? And meet some memorable anti-heroes.
There are thousands of angry, horny monkeys.
Clap if you think she's a witch and it freaks you out. He has x-ray vision. How could I not follow him? Honestly, I gotta follow him. He can see right through me. Listen to Crimeless on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your podcasts. Dad had the strong belief that the devil was attacking us. Two brothers, one devout household, two radically different paths.
Gabe Ortiz became one of the highest-ranking law enforcement officers in Texas. 32 years total law enforcement experience. But his brother Larry, he stayed behind and built an entirely different legacy.
He was the head of this gang, and nobody was going to tell him what to do. You're going to push that line for the cause.
Took us under his wing and showed us the game, as they call it.
When Larry is murdered, Gabe is forced to confront the past he tried to leave behind and uncover secrets he never saw coming.
My dad had a whole other life that we never knew about.
Like my mom started screaming my dad's name and I just heard one gunshot.
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Chapter 4: How do Ziz and Gwyn's beliefs lead to tragic outcomes?
So Ziz winds up in a horrible sublet with a person she describes as an abusive alcoholic. I wasn't there. I don't know if she was the problem in this part. Obviously, I've got one side of this story, but her claim is that it ends in physical violence.
Ziz claims he was to blame, but she also describes a situation where they're like, after a big argument, bump into each other and he calls the cops on her for assault. I wouldn't put it past Ziz to be leaving some parts out of this. But also, I know a bunch of people who wound up in horrible sublets with abusive alcoholics who assaulted them in the Bay Area and in LA.
Craigslist is a crapshoot, you know? Craigslist is a crapshoot, yeah. Every time. I always, I feel like the need to like qualify with like, this is just Ziz's account, but also this sounds like a lot of stories I know people have had. Yeah, no, it's tough to get by there. Yeah. So she calls the, or he calls the cops on her and then, yeah, they do nothing.
And he attacks her in her bedroom that night. So she decides to like, he's like throwing a chair at her and shit. So she decides I got to get out of this terrible fucking sublet. And unfortunately, her next best option, a very common thing in the rationalist community, is to have whole houses rented out that you fill with rationalists who don't have a lot of money. It never ends badly.
Kind of like artists. Yeah, kind of like artists or like content producer houses. It never explodes. People never have horrible times in these. Yeah. Um, this particular rationalist house is called liminal, uh, because you know, Gen Z loves talking about their liminal spaces, um, on the internet.
One resident of the house reacts very negatively when Ziz identifies herself as a non-transitioning trans woman and basically asks like, when are you going to leave? So she has, you know, she, she says that as soon as she arrives, one of the other residents is transphobes. She can't stay there very long. Um, again, all sounds like a very familiar Bay area housing situation story. Yeah.
She bounces around some short-term solutions, Airbnbs, moving constantly while trying to find work. She gets an interview with Google, but the hiring process there is slow. There's a lot of different stages to it, and it doesn't offer immediate relief from her financial issues.
Other potential offers fall through as she conflicts with the fundamental snake oiliness of this era of Silicon Valley development. Ziz blames it on the fact that she couldn't feign enthusiasm for companies she didn't believe in. Quote, I was inexperienced with convincing body language inclusive lies like this. I did not have the right false face, but very quick to think up words to say.
So, like, I'm not good enough at lying that I'm excited about working for an app to, you know, help you do your laundry better, which is like a third of the bay.
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Chapter 5: What cult-like dynamics are present in the rationalist community?
I think like you get ā like there's a cultic milieu that rationalism forms, which is like the substrate, right? If a cult is like a plant growing up from it, like rationalism is this soil that is extremely optimized for growing cults. I think that might be closer. Although it's also one of those things where if you're just trying to explain a story, you can just say it's a cult.
You can say it's this weird Bay Area cult about science and AI and shit. Like that's probably close enough. A few things happen in quick succession after this point. One is that a story broke later in 2018 confirming Ziz's suspicion that the rationalist community was rife with abuse.
Chapter 6: What allegations of abuse emerge within the rationalist community?
Two people accused an influential rationalist who worked at CIFAR, a guy named Brent Dill, of abuse while they were dating him. Both were 19 and he was close to 40. The allegations here remind me a little of the ones against Neil Gaiman. You've got a very powerful man accused of coercing much younger women into extreme BDSM situations and plying them with drugs.
Obviously, none of this is I don't think any of this has been litigated. So I will continue to refer to them as allegations. I don't know exactly what happened here, but this breaks. Right. And it's a big deal within the community. Rumors spread that CIFAR had kind of tried to like hush the whole mess down in order to protect this guy. They conducted an internal investigation.
We all know like when the cops do an internal investigation. Right. That's always reliable. No, trust us to figure it out. We'll police ourselves. That's rational. This internal investigation exonerated Dill and included the line, he is aligned with CIFAR's goals and strategy and should be seen as an ally who embodies a rare kind of agency and a sense of heroic responsibility.
Chapter 7: How do the Zizians escalate their plans and actions?
There's those words again. Agency, heroic responsibility, dating a 19-year-old when you're 40 and giving her drugs. Jesus Christ. Good stuff. People respond with outrage. CIFAR eventually banned Dill from future events. They kind of cave. And Ziz would describe Dill later as a true negative. That's someone who both halves of their brain are evil.
Double bad.
Yeah, double bad. Now, at this point, she still thought Yudkowsky and some other CIFAR leaders might be double good, but she's really not sure about it. And she's especially not sure because none of them embrace this terminology.
Right.
I was going to say, at this point, is Yudkowsky, is he like, are they on good terms? Is he still acknowledging? No. I don't think she's ever on close terms with Yudkowsky. She is speaking and communicating directly with Anna Salomon, who is like one of Yudkowsky's top people quite a lot. I don't think she's super close to Yudkowsky. I'm sure they're at the same events and stuff several times.
She definitely sees him speak. She definitely talks with him. But like, I don't think that they would ever have been close. Right. OK. She does try to force a conversation with Anna Salomon outside of CFAR HQ about this and other discoveries she and Gwyn had made on their boats.
And Ziz like writes in the blog post about it that like she felt it was going pretty good and Anna was listening to her.
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Chapter 8: What are the consequences of the Zizians' actions leading to violence?
There are context clues that I don't think Ziz picks up on that like, oh, no, Anna immediately felt uncomfortable and like you were assaulting her, like coming up to her and just like kind of barraging her with all of this nonsense. And she did not want to have this conversation.
And she kind of pretended to be agree with you in order to end this because she's not sure if you're dangerous, which to be fair, you are. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Soon later at a CIFAR board meeting, Anna recommended that Ziz be disinvited from joint MIRI CIFAR events. And both of these are separate organizations, but basically the membership overlaps or like a circle, right?
Her reasoning for not wanting Ziz at events is that Ziz wore, quote, black clothes, took supervillains as role models and came up with dangerous plans. Yeah.
Yeah.
More or less correct. I forgot that she was also wearing black robes. She's also started dressing like a wizard. Yes. Speaking of dangerous plans, the Rationalist Fleet, or Rat Fleet, was falling apart by this point. Coast Guard and San Mateo Harbor District authorities had issued numerous warnings over the danger of this tugboat leaking poison into the bay.
On several occasions, the Caleb nearly hit other ships while drifting, like the anchor gets fucked up. I don't know that they, they probably don't know how to use it, because like they're- The Navy guy, is he still involved?
He's gone.
He's bounced. He had at least the judgment to cut his losses So they don't even know how to work boats particularly? They do. I think Gwen's actually reasonably competent with a sailboat. Oh, because Gwen has a sailboat. Right. And Ziz gets trained up. And these are both smart enough people that I suspect they're competent with a sailboat.
But like a 24-foot sailboat and a 94-foot tugboat, very different. That's like I'm good with driving my Prius. Give me that fucking 18-wheeler with two fucking storage containers on the back, shipping containers on the back. I could probably back that thing into a parking space. No problem. They're just different, you know? Damn, damn, damn, damn. Authorities, right.
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