4 - Stories from a Pandemic Part II: Dreams and Nightmares
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What is the premise of the pandemic‑related dream series?
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I was following someone wandering through a building trying to find like a way out or escape from something who was apparently an angel, but it was really crowded like a subway station, and we were indoors, and it was really hard to keep up with them. I knew that if I lost them that I wouldn't know if I'd end up in heaven or hell. And that's what happened. I lost them and I couldn't find them and I was leading this group and we ended up in this gorgeous, gorgeous sort of like um rural retreat luxury hotel room that was overlooking a waterfall. It was really like picturesque and beautiful. But the nagging suspicion was there that wait, wait, wait, this I think is actually hell.
You're listening to the Nocturnous Stories from a Pandemic. I'm Emily Silverman. We know the pandemic has affected the waking lives of health care workers. But what happens after we fall asleep? Does the pandemic haunt us in the shadows too? Many of us have spent decades internalizing the biomedical perspective that Dreams are just an incidental byproduct of the firing of neurons during REM sleep. But for others, dreams hold a deeper meaning. As a contemporary of Freud's put it, dreams are a detachment of the soul from the fetters of matter. Where does the soul travel to at night? In this episode, we explore healthcare workers' dreams in COVID times and leave the interpretation to you. Take a listen to dreams and nightmares.
I've been having lots and lots of anxiety dreams throughout the past several months, but especially the past several weeks. always some variation on a theme of losing control. The other night I had a dream where I was trapped in an elevator. It was in an old hotel in New Orleans. I've never actually been to this particular elevator in real life, but I knew in my dream that that's where I was. The walls were all wood panelling and the lighting was sort of dim and yellow. And I was with a group of strangers who were all pleasant. It was a nice group of people. And we were sort of talking and making pleasantries and I had that moment of realization that none of us were wearing masks. I've had many dreams with this moment of realization.
Sometimes I'm in a crowded bar, sometimes I'm having dinner with a big group in a restaurant. Once I was in a crowded stairwell. Exiting quickly because of a fire in the building. Do not use elevators. And in all of these dreams there's that one sickening moment where I look around and realize that nobody is wearing a mask. So in this dream, the strangers and I are talking, little small talk, and none of us is wearing a mask, and the elevator starts to move on its own. It m moves horizontally throughout different floors, it moves vertically. Doesn't matter what buttons we press, the elevator clearly is m moving of its own accord. And then the strangers ask me what I do for a living, and I say that I'm a physician.
And then they say, Oh, well we know this physician and that physician who who died of COVID and oh this other one died too. And so then they all begin to share their stories of the doctors they know who have died of COVID. The strangers were nice and the conversation was polite. It wasn't a true nightmare. But of course it kind of was. I was trying to evade someone who was trying to capture me. And arrest me or something. Then I got caught and then the next thing I knew I was someone else and I was going to try to free this person who was caught. I walked into this office and it was just a couple of people at desks. And here's this person who previously w was me, who's sitting there like eating some food with their legs kicked back and I'm kind of like, This is really strange, you don't look like a prisoner.
And then I notice his food is covered in really, really small ants. And I I'm kind of about to say something when I realize there's really small ants kind of all over the floor.
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Chapters
4 chapters
1
What is the premise of the pandemic‑related dream series?
0:00–6:36
2
How does the first storyteller describe the surreal hallway and waterfall hotel dream?
6:36–12:52
3
What anxiety‑filled details appear in the elevator‑trapped‑doctor nightmare?
12:52–18:25
4
Why do the narrators keep noticing the absence of masks in their COVID dreams?
18:25–29:28