Healing Waters with Roshni Shah
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What is the premise of the episode and who is the guest?
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You're listening to the Nocturnists, stories from the world of medicine. I'm Emily Silverman. We've got a lot of physicians on this show, but I'm really thrilled today to be speaking with a nurse. Her name is Roshni Shah and she told a story at our live show in New York City, produced in partnership with Bellevue Literary Review on the theme of taking care. In Roshni's story, she transports us to a really difficult chapter of her life. She was living at home, she was taking care of her aging mom, and she was working difficult night shifts in the ICU. But despite all this, despite the stress, despite the sleep deprivation and the bickering in her family around that time, Roshni manages to find a moment of intense serenity in the shower with her mom, as they bathe together one morning early after Roshni returns from work.
I loved this story, which gives us an intimate glimpse into Roshni's family life, and I also really loved my conversation with Roshni afterwards. where we talked about the elemental significance of water. The hushed hour between three and four in the morning in the ICU that can feel almost mystical. And the differences between caregiving as a daughter and caregiving as a nurse. But first, let's hear Roshny's story from our live show in New York, Healing Waters.
I pull into my driveway, windows down, music blasting Bollywood, nose dripping. But despite the cold Chicago air, I can barely keep my eyes open. All I can think about right now is going to sleep. It's as if the medications I've been giving my patients overnight in the ICU has somehow gotten into my own bloodstream. All I can hear in my skull is the sound of bed alarms and patients' cries. I am so exhausted.
How does Roshni describe the chaotic home environment before the bath?
As I turned the car off and walked towards the door, I realize my reality is quite different. Between me and my bed lies one more nursing task. I have to give my mom a bath. I open the door and it's utter chaos. My dad in the living room watching Fox News, shouting at my mom across the house while she's in the kitchen. The sound of Donald Trump screeching, mixing in my mom's spiritual music, permeates the house. My mom's not quite used to using her walker yet, so she's just has it kind of sitting there in the kitchen and she uses it to pivot from the fridge to the stove and back. Grabbing fresh ginger and cardamom and nutmeg for her morning jaw. and grabs a handful of onions and mustard seeds and she throws it into hot onion.
And as it sputters, all these smells permeate into my nostrils. My stomach grumbles. My mom looks at me. Hi Bitta, welcome home. I made you breakfast. Now I have just been really nice and patient for the past 14 hours. And I do not have it in me anymore. I've been in my head calculating nurse math. For those that don't know, nurse math is the math nurses use when we're constantly looking at our watch, calculating the best way to get the job done most efficiently to maximize our time for rest. And right now, the one task that remains is giving my mom a bath. And I have calculated, if I do this now, I can get enough sleep before my next shift. So I'm not proud. But I shout at my mom. Mom, can we take a shower now?
She looks up, startled. She stares at the stove in front of her and then she looks at my dad. I know I have to act fast. You see, growing up as the youngest in my family, I've learned all the tricks, and this is my best one. I make my face extra pathetic, my eyes extra sad, and I plead, Mom. I'm so exhausted. She looks at me and I know I've got her. Okay, Beta, ten minutes. I slump to the ground to play with my dog and I pull up my phone. I have so many messages from my friends that I have to get back to. I see the first one. A friend is on her honeymoon in Italy, sending me photos of pasta and wine.
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Chapters
5 chapters
1
What is the premise of the episode and who is the guest?
0:00–2:29
2
How does Roshni describe the chaotic home environment before the bath?
2:29–8:41
3
What triggers Roshni to decide it’s time for her mom’s shower?
8:41–15:00
4
How does the shared shower become a moment of serenity for Roshni and her mom?
15:00–27:24
5
What insights does Roshni share about the elemental significance of water?
27:24–41:00