Ciarán Cuddihy

…But it creeps in then and you just realise, well, there's an absolutely great life out there sober if you just grab it by two hands and hold on to it and fight for it. Yeah. And what was your rock bottom that brought you to the journey that ended with that realisation? I think it was just the years, Ciarán, of misery and depression and suicidal thoughts and…

…And I didn't really realise, Ciarán, how it affected them all until I got sober. During my addiction stage, I couldn't actually see clearly how it was affecting them all until I started getting sober and looking back on everything I'd put them through for the years. And that's when the guilt creeps in then and you feel bad then. But at the time, it's like y…

…were you aware that it was sucking people in before the addiction totally took over? Not really, Ciarán, no. While I was in addiction, it's like I just, I couldn't see anything else other than my next high and I couldn't see how it was affecting them. They would obviously tell me and they would try to help me, but it was in one ear and out the other. It was…