Abbie Chatfield

And then I have to check.

And if I don't check, I have a panic attack or I feel like I want to peel my fucking skin off.

So then I check social media and then I scroll and I scroll and I never feel satisfied because I'm not actually – I'm not scrolling – I'm not doom scrolling.

When I was depressed, I was.

But this is like –

I'm like searching for something that doesn't exist.

I'm searching for the video that I've made up in my head that I've thought that someone might make a video about a take that I had in 2021.

And I,

Or I try to find negative, I don't search, but like I'll look on my For You page or look on my Instagram and look, just go to like pedestrian or something.

I'll go to the news sites and just check there isn't anything about me because it used to be with media that I would do the cause and effect.

I would do something, I would expect it to be covered and it would be done.

Mm-hmm.

In the past six months, because I've not been doing anything controversial, they are now trying to find old things or exaggerate things that I have done or say that I've done things that I haven't done or lost jobs that weren't mine at all.

Like this email that I got saying that there were people saying that I lost a huge job.

When I've told people in media, they actually –

Amy, you know what the lie was.

It's not possible to have a job like that.

It's bizarre.

And the people that have written this work in media.

Be aware.