Abbie Chatfield

And then I remembered that when I first got my script for my dexamphetamine, the biggest thing that I would say to everyone was that it helped my anxiety.

And I think what it is, is that I'm currently just

because I'm in this sensitive nervous system space, I'm getting overstimulated really fucking easily.

Like that sensory thing you said before.

I think I'm like, my brain is already like a sponge and vulnerable to every, every stimulation.

Any input at all that I,

it's overwhelming my entire body and my mind every time I get anything new in there.

And I, I just want to remind you all of the importance of taking your medication essentially, because it's,

I took on this morning and I don't feel – I'm not fixed.

It's not like a magic pill but I do feel way less like – like I've been feeling like I'm on the verge of panic attack for like a week and the week before that was me sleeping all day, like sleeping all day.

And I don't think people who haven't been through depression like that –

understand what that's like because it isn't an enjoyable sleep.

It's a trauma sleep.

It's a nightmare sleep.

It's a, oh, my God, I don't want to wake up sleep where you're like, oh –

peace at last.

And then you wake up and you go instant anxiety.

Like I'm at the stage where like, before I even open my eyes in the morning, when I have that first, like waking up thought, like, you know, like you're asleep and you're going, and maybe the first thought you have is like, I wonder what time it is or whatever, you know, before you even opened your eyes, you could keep sleeping in theory.

Every single morning it's at like four o'clock, four 30.

It's like,