Abbie Chatfield

I actually like – and not being funny, like this is – it was so uncomfortable.

I'm still feeling anxious about it since Friday.

I'll tell you the long story short.

But Adam and I were at an event which is supposed to be an industry event.

So I already have a really hard time G-ing myself up to go anywhere.

I don't go out.

I haven't gone clubbing in like two years and not because –

I don't want to like, yes, I'm not an every weekend clubbing partying.

Like I know Lucy and Nikki, you know, I'm not, I'm not a party girl, but I love to go for a dance at a place.

It's playing some disco or like if it's a drag performance on.

Yeah.

But,

In the past few years, it's just become too draining, too exhausting and too stressful because I'm constantly in fear that someone's going to do something like this and ruin my entire fucking night.

So I was really anxious on Friday already.

And I was like, I'm just going to, I'm just going to go because it's always good for me to go.

And it's an industry event.

So no one's going to come and ask for a photo and no one's going to come and pretend they know me when they don't.

Because so I can then have a relaxing night because the other thing is,

People asking for a photo when I'm out if there's alcohol involved, it's fine.

But if I then am in a photo or a video and I look drunk and someone uploads it and even if I'm not drunk, people will then say that I'm a drug addict, that I'm off my head, that I'm a drunken and that I'm out of control and that I'm an addict.