Alex Cooper

Why are we all pretending everything's fine?

And I remember you said from the outside, my family's life looked extremely privileged, but behind closed doors, there was a lot more to the story.

Yes, we're talking about the parties, but can you kind of paint the picture of what your life did look like in the home with your parents and your siblings?

People always ask us on the show and I'm like- Yeah, you're right.

Please swear.

That's also a very, I think, interesting theme in a lot of people's life is like feeling like if there's someone in your family that's really going through it, then you kind of have to then your problems aren't as big as theirs.

And I know you have talked about kind of like the struggles that your mom went through mental health wise and with substance use.

Is there a moment as a kid that you like acutely remember being like, oh, something is off with her or was it just always a constant?

And what would you like?

Would you ask your father and he wouldn't share?

Well and I think something Cara that is so weird as adults that you have to we have to start to realize which I have a lot of conversations people about is like we love our parents and we also were like that was a weird fucked up thing that happened in my childhood and I think it's hard to grapple with like you can still say that

things did not feel right in your childhood and both things can kind of exist.

And I think it's an odd feeling because it seems like you've kind of made amends with your family and you guys are like on great terms.

But also a child's perception is everything.

It doesn't matter if you were seeing it slightly different than maybe your father was seeing it.

That was your reality.

And so the fact that you were saying, I literally thought my mom was dead.

I had no idea where she was.

That's like your...

you're in shock and you're going through grief and all of those things at a really young age and you're just alone.