Alyssa

We could have, but I would have been isolated with no friends and family, not even his family.

It would have been a place where I would have had to start over making friends and all that.

Uh, because I know how good of a guy he is and he is a good dad.

Like I've heard you talk to other people and like, I hear you as a father and I've like,

got him to listen to you sometimes I'm like this is what Nick says and Natalie's like great too like listen how she like talks to him and they banter and they're in a healthy relationship and yeah so I just know he's a good guy and I know he can be a good dad but like right now he's basically on an airplane and he's putting his own mask on and he's letting me and the kids have to save ourselves in a sense

Oh, gosh.

That I didn't move when he wanted to.

Okay.

A little bit.

I mean... I can be... I'm an anxious attachment.

So, like, even after this emotional affair has happened, like, I feel like I'm even more anxious with our relationship.

That bothers him because he doesn't want to have to deal with my emotions.

He wouldn't say he was the victim, but he's definitely good at controlling the environments that he puts himself in.

Because he's so unattached at the moment.

So like, I don't.

I feel that he cares, but I don't know.

Because he still like makes the effort to talk to me and ask me about my day.

And when, before when we were like, when he was having the emotional affair, he was able to like just talk to the kids and he hung up.

He didn't care about what my day was like.

He didn't,