Andrea Gibson

I love that.

So, um, I know exactly what you're talking about with the claw because my friend sent me a video the other day and she's like, so this is the breath work that we're going to do on Saturday.

And so you might want to try it out.

And I'm like, okay.

So I sat down and I'm doing it.

And all of a sudden I, and I'm doing it alone and my hand starts doing this.

And then I stop and I text her and I'm like, if this thing is happening, also, I can't feel my face or my feet.

And she's like, okay, so you might want support.

You know, this might be something that's healthiest to do guided because, and I said, you know what, if it were any other time in my life, maybe, but if I'm afraid of this, then I'm not going to be able to die.

I'm like, I'm going for it.

So anyway, I kept doing it.

And the claw was happening.

It was so intense.

And then in the middle of that, I realized, so I'll back up and say, the only way I could tell that I have cancer is I have a small tumor on my liver that I can feel, I can feel nagging up against my rib.

And when I feel into that, I can think, okay, as you start to grow,

that's going to be hard.

That's going to be painful.

The doctor had already tried to offer me pain pills for it, which because of my sister, I'm phobic of, so I'm pushing that away as far as possible.

But as soon as that started happening, where I'm feeling all of this stuff and my hands are crumbling,

all of a sudden I realized something I hadn't done, which was I hadn't ever loved the cancer.