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I'm filled with this super guilt with my older brother going into drug-induced psychosis.

But, like, if I could turn back time and not have fame, but have my brother, I would.

But before we talk about that, we kind of have to go into how it started.

It's in the state of her body.

I think the lust for fame comes from not having that attention.

As a child, like, I remember my dad was super inebriated.

His heart stopped, and he wasn't breathing.

I'm, like, attempting to do some form of CPR.

Obviously, I'm 12, but I don't think any of us realized how far it was gonna go that quickly.

island records 150 per single i hadn't seen a thousand pound in my life at this point so then already what's then the darkest period because with light comes shade in the video shoot i keep swigging a bottle you can see it in my eyes as well i'd be talking to the walls you can't walk you can't talk your legs go um i've never spoken about any of this before me not being drunk from january till now that's the longest i've been sober since i was 12 years old

Can you address this?

Yeah, I am very aware of what you do and I'm a big fan of what you do and I've seen it.

So I know that these conversations are very open and vulnerable.

And I'm not afraid of those conversations.

I mean, we've just met, you know what I'm saying?

So there's a vulnerability, anxiety in that, you know what I'm saying?

It's far more revealing.

I've always said, even down to shows, the most nerve-wracking shows I do are like...

the forgive me for people who come to them the weird industry ones where it's like 80 people all sat with like champagne just like watching you perform rather than like once you get past 5,000 5,000 to 10,000 there's not much difference because like you're not it's just like a sea of people now what's the biggest crowd you've performed in front of

We've done Wembley with Capital.