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And I'm doing this at work, which, and it's normalized.

This is my first like proper high production video shoot.

And again, part of my thing, not even just as a brand, but as like a person, my whole thing was like, no one can out drink me.

No one can out party me.

And again, that's, it's what my old man used to say to me, like when I was a kid and we used to have a few drinks or get up to whatever.

He'd be like, when you want a shot at a title, come for it.

whole time i'm off like by the end of it that tattoo scene of me well i'm tattooing adiola um this is obviously after the body line has gone off she's in the shop um yeah i'm pissed at my head but in that scene when i look back at it like you can see it in my eyes as well i've done because in the video shoot i keep swigging a bottle which they wanted but they told me yo like don't actually sip it and i'm like what like

I'd get annoyed at people for saying shit like that to me.

Like, what, you think to my fans I'm going to fake the lifestyle?

And then the next day, so we had to do a pickup shoot.

Half the video was done second day.

I'd gone out the night before and was doing, I'll let people draw their conclusions.

I'm clubbing.

and drinking girls' pies.

I've ended up back at some random uni gaff.

I've never spoken about any of this before, but it feels weird for me to speak about because in that time, this was a big part of my life that...

we quite intentionally hid like because the cheeky fun hey the life of the party guy is less endearing if you were to see the full extent of it and we were aware of that um and so we we kind of hid it even like slightly from my label so forgive me if i like stutter a bit because i'm not i'm not used to talking about it you know what i'm saying and i remember my checking the time

and i was ignoring my manager my plan was to not turn up to this this is this is the start of my career i'm doing this already and it's like i look back like how could you be so almost self-destructive and detrimental to something that you wanted and worked so hard for for so long we got in the car and i'm saying to my manager you can't send me to the video shoot i'm not doing it and he's like this is your own doing and they have spent money and this is you are too early

in this signing and in this relationship.

And he was 100% right.