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I don't think he was, like, forcing me or, like, exploiting.

He was saying, like, this is your own doing and what do you want us to do?

Everybody's there.

So you're going to have to go down and, oh, at least, again, I'm an adult, do you know what I'm saying?

And I'm acting like a little boy at this point.

So I'm absolutely finished.

I haven't slept for, like, what's it?

Over 24 hours now.

So I've gone out at 10 o'clock at night.

It's now like one o'clock in the afternoon the next day.

I'm still going to keep myself going.

I'm drinking still and I'm doing whatever else.

But as soon as there's that action, the smile was on.

You'd pop it.

The eyes were wide open.

Like, I don't think you would watch that video and could tell that on one half of the shoot day, I hadn't slept.

It's sad for me to say, but some of those moments where I'm supposed to be so, so up

I'm not down, but I'm not really up either.

I'm basically just...

not always pissed up but even when i'm not pissed up i'm i'm in autopilot mode like i'm very detached because my my whole character or essence that i'm selling even though it is me it's a role that i'm playing and have developed from a young wanting something child and i was constantly like escaping myself as a person who like had all these feelings and like undealt with