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I'm not going to start incriminating or going into major detail of that.

But essentially, he had...

he made a choice he could have been more of a man and maybe dealt with certain issues or problems that were going on or obtained some kind of money or like I don't know how he would have fixed it to be honest I might give him his dues and that the best solution in terms of the safety for like

my mum and me and my brother, he had to leave the country.

So he didn't just leave and walk out my mum and stayed in England.

He'd fled.

Only up until really recently, he doesn't come bright and a lot because there's a lot of history for him here.

But when we did see him and he would take us to like the park or whatever, this would be like, there'll be years in between.

It wasn't like, okay, now that you've met your dad, I always, I have a conversation with my mum about this recently.

Like, it wasn't now that you've met your dad, you're going to see him every other week.

He's going to come.

I always say to my mum, that probably...

would have helped a little bit with the feeling of like this constant yearning for attention because if anything i always say meeting him and then disappearing for however long until you decide it's fine you come back was like

what can I do then?

How can I get this attention from this guy?

Because also when I'm with him, I'm so idolising him.

It's euphoric, man.

And I feel, I believe all, like majority of young men probably look at their dads that way, no matter what it is your dad does.

But especially when you're rolling around Brighton with him and there are certain characters that seem a bit, you know, and they're like, hey, what?

Do you know what I'm saying?