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I don't know if he was meant to be there that day, but I'd have to ask her.

I'm pretty sure...

we didn't know he was going to be there, as far as I'm aware.

Because also, my mum, at this point, when I'm 9, 10, she's with her fella.

Not at the time, they're together now.

So I don't know how that dynamic would have worked or if they'd have planned to do that, knowing that he was there and stuff.

He was like, my mom had a boyfriend from, I don't know when they started seeing each other.

I remember meeting him for the first time around this time.

Like that's my first kind of early memory of him, but he's in the army.

So he was around like, sometimes it'd be gone for months at a time.

If he was there, he was only there for a weekend and then he had to go back to base.

And that was their relationship for like,

only recently since he's been discharged, which is like 14 years, whatever it is.

Yeah, and just like it was this attention gap

that I yearn for so much.

And then especially because when he was here, this isn't any disrespect on knocking to my brother, but, like, me and my dad get along very well.

And it probably stems from, because I was always told, you're so much like him, I played into that.

And then because of the kind of geezer he is, he's like a proud, yeah, like, that's my boy, like, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

And...

I would imitate him and I would see that he liked that.