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My brother, I remember my brother sobbing his eyes out.

I remember being super frozen, like not crying, not even really like sad.

And I remember like, obviously I'm 12, so I'm like attempting to do some form of CPR and like get him up and like slapping his face and like shaking him.

And then like he like sat up and like took a breath and was like, oh, like what happened?

And he was like, again, you know when someone's drunk and they're like, they're talking about...

things that like they've obviously had a conversation in their head like it's not really making sense to me what he's saying so that's scary as well because you just like even know if you're talking to me or like again now I just know he was super inebriated do you know what I mean and then like I remember trying to

like roll him over or whatever.

And then I remember the next day he was fine.

And that was kind of the start of like, oh, you know, you might not.

He would say to my brother in front of me, like, you might not see me for a bit.

Like, cause Riley's gonna obviously explain to mom what happened.

And then I'll be like, no, no, no, I'm not.

And he's like, no, you are, and it's fine.

And then my brother will be like, no, don't, because they're not going to see that.

There was another time.

So then in that moment, then you had to decide if you're going to keep that secret.

Yeah, I didn't tell my mom that.

I think I only told my mom that a few years ago.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, and my mama said that to me all the time.