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That was the straw that broke the donkey's back.

How does that change you then?

I'm filled with this super guilt because not only have I...

been distant from him because we're on different paths in life.

But I've also had thoughts where I've been like, well, you know, I could try and make the relationship bond a bit better.

I could see him more.

I could bring him to shows.

I could bring him to studio.

I bring my mates to studio.

Like, I love my brother.

We get along.

So why don't I?

And then obviously due to the path he had taken and whatever had gone on with him.

that's happened right underneath my nose we live in the same house together like how how have i missed this how's it got to that point where he's he's he's taken whatever he's taken and obviously it's put him into a drug-induced psychosis and like i remember he'd my mom had said it to me and

he had come home i don't know if you've ever seen someone when they're like that but like i i haven't it's terrifying like didn't look like him his eyes weren't there he wasn't making sense he was jittering he's never really been the same since and he still has it's complicated like he has

The reason was as to why he felt he had to take or do whatever it was he was doing and taking that led to him being like that or getting into that state.

Yeah.

And it was something I had even before the psychosis and something that I battled with all the time.

Yeah.

Yeah.