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And to show, like, I'm like, I'm in, we've got like a bar or had a bar in the house that we're no longer at.

But like, I'd be talking to myself or talking to the walls or I'm on all sorts of drugs now.

And especially when I found and dove into ketamine.

That was the numbing agent.

And so my thing with that was never like I would do a little bit, because some people do it to get, they call it wonky or like they're a bit, mine was, it was go, go all the way.

It was like buying seven grams at a time.

And then it started like constantly doing it while I'm out, which is a terrible look because you can see far easier when someone's on something like that.

rather than the other because you can't walk you can't talk your legs go so then there are videos like that coming out of me and then that gets worse and then what it stops being is like I'm going out for a little bit and

kind of fronting it as like, yeah, I want to go out and get lit, but I'm only out for a few hours now and going straight back home and carrying on for days at home.

Yeah, yeah, at home on my own.

For days?

For days.

Yeah, yeah.

In my bedroom at home, like, I'd have two bottles of rum by my bedside table at night.

In my darkest moments, two bottles of rum.

three, three, five of packet and at least seven grams of ketamine and just on my own.

And you know, I mean, I'm surprised you didn't die.

It's wild.

And there's just so many times where my mom's like come in the room or come into wherever I'm at terrified or just super worried about me.

The combination of all of that happening and my older brother going into psychosis.