ArrDee

It's tough.

It's difficult.

Me and my brother both have a very different...

few of my mum and me and my brother have fallen out over it quite a few times throughout our lives again this makes me sad to say their relationship is difficult now just looking from the outside in

because he's again a little bit before and since the scenario and since the psychosis not scenario but he's very um secluded doesn't really want to talk a lot um and he has his feelings about my mama like how things were done and so she obviously still checks on him i would

definitely go far enough to say it's probably a quite a one-sided relationship from my mum's side you know and it doesn't mean he doesn't i know he loves her do you know what i mean yes but i think there's just there's some resentment held from him and i think some of it is due to like his brain has obviously very recently been rewired due to whatever substances and

Like it's too difficult to try and not only communicate with him just on a day-to-day level.

How are you?

You know, what have you eaten today?

To then try and dive into all that.

Like there's a time and place for it.

And at this moment in our lives, it's not now.

I mean, can we talk about fatherhood?

Yeah.

I think before we talk about that, we kind of have to go into...

me and my partner i think we have to do me and my partner first okay you notion yeah me and osh okay because like you say like this reshaping my walk how i am and how i view the world it starts with her

And I mean, I'm sure you saw, maybe you didn't, but on my post where I was like, my whole life, even though I've glamorized and idolized my dad, there's always been a part of me that's very aware that is not how you father or parent someone.

Yeah.

Cause like I was saying, like I was always, I've always been like, I'm never having kids.

I don't want to be a dad.