Bláthnaid Raleigh

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602 appearances 1 recordings 1 series first heard Jul 2026 last heard 2 Jul

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Talking Bollox Podcast · Episode 276 w/ Blathnaid Raleigh · 2 Jul 2026 podcast

she's going to be raped, you know, and I took all of this on and then I stopped going out and stopped kind of socialising with my friends and I hated myself.

I felt that, like...

I had let this happen to me I didn't fight him like I should have fought him I didn't fight him and it'll be like I hated I couldn't let myself get my hair done I couldn't let myself buy myself new clothes because I didn't deserve it I was you know I felt dirty I felt used I wasn't worth anything he didn't see me being anything you know I must have been an easy target

and it's all of this and and I totally withdrew from everything and I go through phases of not being able to sleep like horrific nightmares just playing the whole thing over and over again or being like I need to remember every detail of what happened so I'd like lie in bed and like go through the night like and then at 10 o'clock I had such a thing to drink and then so that I wouldn't forget anything

yeah, I just hadn't, I'd say like my motivation for life just went.

I never was suicidal, but I was dull.

I had no joy in my life.

I was so numb.

I withdrew from everything.

I didn't go on holidays.

I didn't, I didn't do anything nice.

I was horrible to myself, you know, after it.

And I lived in fear.

Like I hadn't had that fear since I was a

a child I've been you know when you're a child and you watch a scary movie or something and you're really afraid of the big bad man or someone coming to take you I was convinced that he was going to kill me he was going to find me and kill me because I was like there's no way he's going to do this like what he's done

and let me live or let this happen.

Like, there's no way.

And I just, yeah.

Then COVID hit and everybody was kind of at home anyway.

So in a way that kind of suited me.

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