Brooke Schofield

Yeah.

he doesn't have the like father in him and so I've had to just like accept that and stop expecting him to like be a dad and our relationship has gotten so much better since then yeah you just I need to not hold him to such a high standard I felt that way with my mom I my mom her mom was horribly neglectful she ended up going on to kill herself so she like my mom didn't have a a good example she doesn't yeah I don't know if she ever knew how to be a mom she had three daughters and all of us ended up different places so like

I have to you know be fair to her and like understand that she is like you know they say it's your parents first time living too but at the same time selfishly I have to like understand that that comes at a major cost to me and for me to like if I want to start a family and I want to go on to do all these things I need to like I need to cut that tie because that's how you carry it on it

For a long time, I really struggled with gratitude and feeling grateful for like what I do have because I have so much, you know what I mean?

And I have so much privilege and things that I dream dreamt of.

And I felt a lot of guilt for like feeling the way that I did when I knew I had all of this stuff.

Nothing like that would have ever happened.

Yeah, I don't regret canceled in any way.

I don't regret, you know, anything about like the way that my career has panned out.

Of course, maybe if I could go back, I would maybe have.

I don't know if I don't know if I would have wanted to delete all of that or whatever, because it was such a huge part.

I mean, it was a huge learning lesson for me.

And.

It was important to like I needed to learn that particular lesson like and forgive myself for like having felt that way in the past.

And it is cliche to say like everything happens for a reason.

But like all of that led me to where I am right now.

And I'm very, very happy where I am right now.

And I have everything that I have because of canceled.

So if that that was the reason that all that bad like that bad stuff happened, I would still do it again.

And what is like your relationship with the Internet today?