Candyce

And in that moment I knew too, like it's her.

I passed that test.

Like I get so many signs from her, not as many as I would like, but I know for a fact that she's still here.

She's still looking out for me.

She's telling me like, mom, I love you.

You're doing everything that you need to.

we you find your purpose here yeah and like I'm doing this now but I will see her again yeah she's waiting absolutely we like to say that she's up with my grandma she passed away when I was 16 taking care of her she loved to craft loved to do scrapbooking so Delilah's just bumping into walls with her wings and right making a mess but my grandma's up there taking care of her

Yeah, because I can't sit and think about it.

And unfortunately, my mind just goes 24-7.

And I've tried...

talking it out with the therapist.

I've tried seeing a psychologist to get me some prescriptions to help me.

Nothing works.

I've tried Zoloft for months and adding Wellbutrin and all any of those

They're not going to take your grief away.

Yeah, it's not going to take it away.

And I understand it's supposed to support when you don't have those coping skills.

When those coping skills aren't working, those medications are supposed to be a backup.

But I just felt rage all the time.

I'm already like an angry person.