Cara Delevingne

I was quite hurt by one guy specifically who took my virginity.

And I was like, after this, I'm going to hurt all of you.

It's so rude and mean.

Even when I tried to speak about maybe my sexuality being exactly different, they were like, no, no, it's not.

I'll show you that kind of stuff.

it helped my ego.

It helped my ego in the sense that I was like, maybe I am pretty, but it didn't come from inside.

I think something that I really had to learn is that I really believe that we all have everything we need inside of us.

And I was so externally reaching for anything that like,

I just was empty.

And so you really have to like grow that garden in yourself, I guess.

But I couldn't, my brain was not computing that.

It was not happening.

Like, absolutely not.

But my body was like, oh, this is where I feel safe.

Oh, and then my heart, I couldn't control.

Like, I always felt like I was in control with men.

Like, I could run around with women.

It was a nightmare.

But also I think I hadn't... There was still a lot of trauma with the thing of trying to fix people and the abandonment, which I think I put into a lot of my relationships for a long time.