Cara Delevingne

For sure, I feel that way.

I know it's not healthy.

I know I have to combat that sometimes.

But I also know that that system for me hadn't worked in the past.

It didn't.

There's a part of it where like,

You know, whether it's, oh, I've decided to, I'm going to try and microdose a mushroom, right?

In previous iterations of sobriety, that would take me down.

My count has gone back to zero again.

I'm not sober.

I can't call myself a sober person.

Then that cycle of guilt and shame, oh, I'm done now.

I'm not sober.

So now I'm fucked up and now I'm going to do drugs, was so strong and such a pull that

that I also like in my head, when I'm told I can't do something, when I have the option to go, I could go have a beer, but I choose not to, the power I have in that is something I would never realize I could get.

And I love people doing drugs.

That sounds like a crazy thing, but I love the culture.

I love music.

I love festivals.

I loved that part of going into a bathroom with loads of people and talking.