Carla Kaufman Sloan

And it happened repeatedly.

And then it wasn't until months later that I realized that was him saying, I'm right here with you, Mom.

I'm right here.

And I feel like when our loved one passes, especially a child, they're doing everything in their power to let you know they're okay so you can get through your grief and continue to live the life you're supposed to live here.

So I really feel like Calder was pulling out all the stops because I was stubbornly holding on to my grief.

Like, I didn't want to let it go because it felt like...

I was letting him go until I realized that that wasn't true.

So he did everything he could.

He put things in my path.

He started sending me dragonflies nonstop.

They would be everywhere.

I would be in a swimming pool with like 100 kids around me splashing and being crazy.

And my sister-in-law would look at me and say, there are two dragonflies sitting on your head.

She's like, I guess Calder's here because then everybody knew.

And it was just, it becomes fun.

I know in season two you had Laura on.

So the way I came to be in the book signs was she gave me a reading.

And then she goes, are you guys going on a trip coming up?

And I said, yes, we are.

And she said, oh, well, Calder said he's going to send you a deer to have a moment with.