Caroline Foran

Like I said, it was the countryside.

So like a lot of just like local lads who drive around for fun and a lot of mountains, like little mini mountains everywhere.

And the thing you did was just get in the car and go drive around way too fast.

And I remember being in the car already being like, I don't feel well and I don't know where I am.

There's no lights on the road and I'm so far from home and

No grown up knows that we're here.

Like, you know, I just I had all that awareness.

I didn't feel well.

And then I remember the driver, this guy, been thinking it was hilarious, taking his hands off the wheels.

And like I had to like jump over and try and steer it.

And everyone was laughing.

And I was it was so hard for me to be like, I don't I need to go home.

I don't want to be here because it was like your sap, your illusion.

And I had we had we pulled in somewhere.

I was violently ill.

And again, it was like, oh, it just must be some bug, like it must be something.

And of course, it was a deep sense of panic and not feeling safe in myself, which I couldn't understand.

And I also couldn't even pinpoint or articulate.

I definitely wouldn't have even had that awareness.

And then I missed most of my fifth year of school.