Cas Holman

So play was all I did.

But also I had a tricky childhood.

I didn't know it at the time, but that was how I got through.

I'm really grateful that I had a really strong drive to play because I think I would be a really different person if I hadn't played the whole time while all of these tricky things were happening in my childhood.

Yeah.

And I see in my adulthood times that are hard.

And I think also in protest and as a queer person, we play.

Queers are very good at playing.

Oh, yeah, yeah.

Because we have to.

And it's how we resist.

It's like how we resist.

I, two nights ago, was at an unprofessional variety show with chaotic drag performers and comedians and all of us laughing and crying every once in a while because also it was grounded and we're all terrified.

It was, I think, reminding us all who we are and that we're going to be okay.

Recognizing it.

Yeah.

And I think I needed big gesture.

I needed to be moving around in my body, outside of buildings, exploring, connecting, not knowing what I was around to balance out that school, the actual physical structure that I spent eight hours a day in was really just killing me.

Yeah.

Still to this day, when it's a beautiful day out and we watch kids file into a school, I'm just like, and I have kids in my life now.