Chanel Jones

What I also realized is I grieved Uche for so long.

And I'm sure somebody will know if this is a term, I don't know, but I pre-grieved too, because you know it's coming, even though I was in denial.

And then I grieved Uche, and so I've been grieving for so long that I will acknowledge I don't think I have truly grieved her, because then it's too much.

Everyone's like, oh, you're so strong, and you're there for your kids, and all of the things.

And grieving him has been so much.

And so with her, I've had to like tuck it just a little bit.

Like I can feel it, but like if I allow myself to truly explore what she means to me, I might have to take a personal day tomorrow.