Charlie Mackesy

And it's caused me to seek help or caused me to question or need to process something.

Um, and, and so I think I've drawn on those times.

Um, and you know, and the return to love, you know, the moral says, where does it do?

Where did your strength come from?

When he reconnects from remembering, I am loved.

Yes.

It's, it's that.

It's that notion of light, a notion of connection, a notion that in spite of everything, you're held, you're known, you're loved.

Yeah, it's been a huge thing.

that vulnerability and the act of it is like a window into a whole new world of existence and possibility and freedom that you can tell you can say this and it's the most courageous thing and it's just letting a door open and i used to be terrified of that door because what was what was going to happen if i dared open it like oh my

just keep it down and carry on stoically and wow you know and it's not easy and it's not immediate but it's this process of discovery that your your visceral root you brought humanness and humanity is incredible and universal

Universal, like you're not this free, everybody, we're all, so just talk about it and connect.

I, so I remember, I think I've had low level anxiety a lot and I've managed it for some, but now I think that it goes up a level sometimes and presents itself as what I thought I was dying.

Like I thought my heart was going so fast and I was sort of holding onto the wall and like, what is this?

And a friend of mine is a doctor and I called him.

I said, I think, I think I might be dying.

And he said, describe to me what you feel.

I said, my heart's going a thousand miles.

I have to cling to it.

He said, I think I'm going to talk you down from this.