Charlotte Seaman

But I was in a house full of people that I knew and I'd known them all them years.

And because one of them had a van, I got in my head that they was going to fucking put me in the back of this van, take me to London.

I was going to be, I thought there was a whole other world under London, underground.

where I was going to be kept as a sex worker or whatever.

I don't exactly know what I thought was going to happen, but, you know, I'm saying that now, but when you're actually fucking thinking any second that that is going to happen to you, it's, yeah, it's scary.

And I remember fucking leaving my phone there because I thought it was bugged.

That was one of the times, actually, I just sat there and I thought, I can't do this no more.

But I am.

just living in fear.

I don't know who I am.

I just become like this shell of a person that was still using, but I was in so much pain when I was using.

Well, because there's gear in it, you know, it's not as intense as like a crack pipe on its own.

They're a different type of intense because that's got gear in it as well.

But, you know, you need something to bring you down from a crack pipe.

But normally, you know, if it was the last one, maybe put a little bit more gear in it or tablets, alcohol, just take anything.

Yeah.

I wouldn't leave it.

I would not leave it.

I would fucking terrorise my family.

I'd go round to my family's house, demand money, want money, or make up all these stories, like saying it's going to happen to me.