Ciara McGeehan

So yeah, that first one I was like, it'll be early.

And obviously upsetting, like my poor mummy had her hands in her mouth and we went to the dropping well for dinner after, which is a spot that me and Tommy had our first date at.

I was reminiscing about those things, but we were both kind of in a bit...

We were both a bit quiet, you know, commented on the lovely Guinness sweetened bread there.

And we're like, this is very nice.

But, you know, making conversation, we're kind of like... It's not the most thrilling conversation we've had.

No, yeah.

And getting back to the hotel room and kind of that quietness and us both being like, right.

But yeah, it wasn't until I had further scans that they were able to tell the extent of my cancer.

And yeah, the day that I sat in the Ulster Hospital in Dundonald and was told that it's stage four cancer, that was whenever...

I'd say that it felt like a tsunami had hit me.

And like suddenly that was the crushing news.

And the reality of it is you just don't know.

Like at the time, my sister didn't tell me this, but she had a friend whose sister was diagnosed with something similar and only lasted a few months because she didn't respond to the chemo.

And obviously Myra knew that information.

I had foolishly Googled five-year survival rate of stage four blood cancer patients.

And it was like a 10 to 15% survival rate to year five for people with my diagnosis.

Google.

I just Googled it and it popped up.

Oh, sorry.