Clark Fredericks

And, uh, you know, that was my whole twenties into my thirties, you know, just doing that, you know, like drugs, drugs weren't a big thing in my twenties. Um, you know, if, if, if we went out, you know, and I'm just saying sporadically once in a blue moon and somebody is like, well, let's, you know, let's get some Coke and get a bag of Coke for a night going out. That would be a rarity, you know?

And, uh, you know, that was my whole twenties into my thirties, you know, just doing that, you know, like drugs, drugs weren't a big thing in my twenties. Um, you know, if, if, if we went out, you know, and I'm just saying sporadically once in a blue moon and somebody is like, well, let's, you know, let's get some Coke and get a bag of Coke for a night going out. That would be a rarity, you know?

Um, I went years without doing cocaine in my 20s. Just sex though, sex and drinking. Those were my drugs then.

Um, I went years without doing cocaine in my 20s. Just sex though, sex and drinking. Those were my drugs then.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, I mean, I was going through jobs. I got out of college. My father put up money for me to become a partner in a tire retreading shop. My brother was in the tire business. My father was a salesman for Goodyear. He thought, oh, let's have all three sons in the tire industry. And so he put up money.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, I mean, I was going through jobs. I got out of college. My father put up money for me to become a partner in a tire retreading shop. My brother was in the tire business. My father was a salesman for Goodyear. He thought, oh, let's have all three sons in the tire industry. And so he put up money.

You know, so here I got this great education and went and became a partner in a tire shop with a retired trooper friend of my dad's. And it just imploded, you know, like within three years it was done. Like just my father's relationship with this best friend fell apart. I was stuck in the middle. And I just like after I was like a pawn between the two of them. And I was just like, F this.

You know, so here I got this great education and went and became a partner in a tire shop with a retired trooper friend of my dad's. And it just imploded, you know, like within three years it was done. Like just my father's relationship with this best friend fell apart. I was stuck in the middle. And I just like after I was like a pawn between the two of them. And I was just like, F this.

And I left. Yeah. and uh i got a job on wall street i got uh i was working on wall street living out in jersey still commuting in i did that for a couple years uh walked away from that um i worked for a buddy in uh My grandfather had died. My grandmother had gotten murdered, which is a whole thing we can go into. And each grandchild inherited some money.

And I left. Yeah. and uh i got a job on wall street i got uh i was working on wall street living out in jersey still commuting in i did that for a couple years uh walked away from that um i worked for a buddy in uh My grandfather had died. My grandmother had gotten murdered, which is a whole thing we can go into. And each grandchild inherited some money.

And I took my money to buy a fixer-upper house. And my buddy was in construction. So I started working with him in construction to learn how to redo the house. And he and I worked on it. And when we fixed it up, then I went to work for him for a couple of years doing construction. And then And then blew that off after a while.

And I took my money to buy a fixer-upper house. And my buddy was in construction. So I started working with him in construction to learn how to redo the house. And he and I worked on it. And when we fixed it up, then I went to work for him for a couple of years doing construction. And then And then blew that off after a while.

Feeling trapped. And trapped is how I felt at his house.

Feeling trapped. And trapped is how I felt at his house.

I was an animal in a snare when I would go to his house and I would feel trapped in relationships. You know, like I was the greatest boyfriend for three months. Like you would have a blast for those three months, but then you'd be like, you know, it's just overwhelming after a while. Like it's, you know, a nonstop party and sex fest. It's like, you know, it would start off great.

I was an animal in a snare when I would go to his house and I would feel trapped in relationships. You know, like I was the greatest boyfriend for three months. Like you would have a blast for those three months, but then you'd be like, you know, it's just overwhelming after a while. Like it's, you know, a nonstop party and sex fest. It's like, you know, it would start off great.

And then it would be like, Can we do something normal? And, you know, can we start like, you know, be like, see ya, you know?

And then it would be like, Can we do something normal? And, you know, can we start like, you know, be like, see ya, you know?

And the same thing too. Like, I don't want to be trapped in a job. I'm not, I'm never going to feel trapped again, you know? So it was always just cutting and running, cutting and running.

And the same thing too. Like, I don't want to be trapped in a job. I'm not, I'm never going to feel trapped again, you know? So it was always just cutting and running, cutting and running.