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like the whole world could have not been existent.

And it was great when I was with Leah, like our connection is so great, like we've said.

And it was enough for me to forget like my past relationship.

And I was very like oblivious and blinded that how much it was really interfering.

But it continued like that for like a year and a half.

An issue would come up.

I would be able to listen to Leah very well and understand enough to go to my head to try to like pick up pieces to me, almost like, like a bandaid fix.

All because I realized I wasn't able to open up and just explain like how it felt like in my chest kind of about like the real pain and the fears.

I would say like I kind of let her on, making it seem like the co-parenting I have with my ex was more normal than it was.

Like it's just for our child.

Like there's nothing to worry about.

And there was nothing to worry about.

I just didn't know how to set any boundaries on that side of my life.

no honestly our relationship it was it was very it's a very long relationship and it was it was kind of my one and only relationship so like i don't come from i hadn't came from many experiences yeah so to me i i had no control early on and i never had control and then even when we divorced it just continued that way like i didn't know another way honestly

Like to me, it felt it was under, or it was against like the normal, like I hate to say normal of like an abusive relationship, but I did admit like, it didn't seem like something I could complain or be scared about because I was the older partner and the male and you, to me, I mean, I've only had the one relationship, so it didn't seem like I was actually being like the abused one.

And I am now, like, I do want to say from day one has been like more supportive than, than anyone could have asked for.

I was just, I, it was too much like hoping, like, I think we're all good.

Like, I'm just hoping that she'll, that my, my ex will just leave me alone.

I was hoping that I could go two days without being reached up to.

but Leah has always been there to help me.