Cole

Like she gave me so much advice on how and what to do.

I just, I couldn't show up in that way in that moment.

It has came across as like, it has been super helpful because I know there's been moments where I could, I could have just been like, I could just tell her like how this feels right now, but she's always been like, let me know how I can help you.

Or like, if you need to do like, let just like reach out or talk to me.

Yeah.

And there were so many times where I'm like, I could just tell her just like a quick little thing and it would open up like the floodgates maybe.

But I just I pretended like it was all good.

Yeah.

I've recently said that I didn't want to admit.

I haven't wanted to admit that part.

And I don't admit this to anybody else.

With Leah, she's the only one that has known about my past.

So obviously, I haven't wanted to admit that to anybody.

And I just didn't want to admit that someone exists like this person does.

And the toll I guess that has taken on me.

Yeah, I just I didn't.

I've always thought that like no partner would want to know about a crazy ex.

So I didn't want to let her know about the crazy ex.

Yeah.

Yes, that's very true.