Colm Tóibín

And if I was walking along a corridor and he was walking on the other way, he would just stare at me.

I found that very exciting.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And I think I had, I think someone said it was unusual that my eyes were a completely different color to either of my parents.

My mother's eyes were sort of gray and my father's were blue, but mine were completely different.

You know, I did really feel, it was a joke at the beginning, that I was on my way to Buckingham Palace and I just got dropped in a Scorthy by accident and I would just have to put up with it.

And I would, you know, it was sort of grandeur.

I liked things that were nice.

And I was ashamed of our car, which was a Morris Minor.

I wanted us to get a bigger car.

And my mother would just say, well, there you are again.

it was such a mistake.

That's so funny.

You know, um, years later, I told her that that was in Freud.

Um, and she said, it was that good or bad.

And I said, it's always bad.

It's always neurosis.

It's always wrong.

If your parents say that to you and you grew up thinking that, that you, um, really were destined for elsewhere.