Dr. Jesse Mills

In 1995, my neighbor and a trainer disappeared from a commune.

It was hard to wrap your head around.

It was nature and trees and praying and drugs.

And back then, I lied to my parents.

I lied to police.

I lied to everybody.

I've decided to go back to my hometown in Northern California, interview my friends, family, talk to police, journalists, whomever I can, to try to find out what actually happened.

I'll teach you sons of bitches to come around here with my wife.

Boom, boom.

This is The Red Weather.

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I said, I need you to tell me exactly what you're doing.

This is Dr. Jesse Mills, host of the Mailroom Podcast.

Each January, men promise to get stronger, work harder, and fix what's broken.

But what if the real work isn't physical at all?

I sat down with psychologist Dr. Steve Poulter to unpack shame, anxiety, and the emotional pain men were never taught how to name.

Part of the way through the valley of despair is realizing this has happened, and you have to make a choice whether you're going to stay in it or move forward.

Our two-part conversation is available now.

Listen to The Mailroom on the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you get your favorite shows.

This is Ryder Strong, and I have a new podcast called The Red Weather.