Eleanor Doyle

Then my second, my daughter, then when I was 26 and...

And by that time, I suppose deep down, I knew like there was a problem here.

But I thought, look, if I'm a better mother, if I'm a better partner, if I clean the house better, if I cook better meals, if I look better, if I did all these things better, I was going to just die.

saved the day and I was going it was my fault all this was happening and if I changed myself and I was just perfect at everything everything was going to be fine because I didn't want my children to come from a broken home and looking back now like we were in a broken home do you know what I mean but I just didn't want that stigma as I taught at the time I was like no I have to stick with it I have to make this work I'm so determined but sometimes it can work against you I was like this is going to work

And then I suppose my third girl, then I was my third child and I was 29.

And I just knew just things were so bad.

But I just kept it from everybody.

It was like this big secret.

Everything on the outside of the house, everything looked perfect.

From the outside world, they're living the dream.

They're living the life.

But I used to have to go to bed with the keys of the car underneath my pillow.

I'd have to hide the money, my own money.

I'd be hiding it in drawers around the house and just never said anything to anyone.

Yeah, to drink the money, yeah.

I used to have to hide it.

And then anyway, the house, whatever, he was paying the mortgage.

I thought he was paying the mortgage.

And he wasn't.

And the house ended up being repossessed.