Ella Mills (Deliciously Ella)
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815 appearances
1 recordings
1 series
first heard Jan 2026
last heard 8 Jan
Ella Mills (Deliciously Ella)’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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That's so tough.
But it was a really interesting one because I couldn't...
For that period, I couldn't take any level of personal responsibility and not that it was my fault, but I couldn't, I was in such a state of kind of apathy at this point that that was the only thing I could do.
I couldn't really grasp a sense of like, what else can I do?
How could I also try and help myself?
I think I so wanted someone else to have the answer and I felt so reliant on that.
And I remember my dad saying to me, like, I think you're depressed.
You know, I think you need to talk to someone.
And I just had this sense of, no, I can't.
I can't do that because I can't have something else, quote unquote, wrong with me.
Like I just couldn't.
Wow.
Yeah, exactly.
It was like nothing.
If someone else tells me I have something else wrong, essentially with me, I can't take it.
I'm like, so I'm just going to.
It was a kind of state of apathetic denial, essentially, that there was something wrong and there was something very seriously wrong.
I was in a very kind of dark place, but I just couldn't.
I couldn't bring myself to sort of recognize that openly.
And I still completely disappeared, completely disappeared.
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