Ellyse Perry

And I'm really worried about like all the different things that I'm doing.

Is it still good enough?

Like, and that just permeated through the whole week.

Um, in actual fact, like if I just went and batted in the nets and just were there and present for that moment.

all of those defining things about me being a bit older or being here for like too long or like, am I still good enough?

Would have gone out the window.

You're about to bend me off.

I think the very first thing is accepting that it's happened and not fighting it.

But then carving out some space in your mind to have a think about it and kind of not...

not kind of just push it to the back but be like okay well why why was I like that um and and not so you know as we're talking about non-judgmentally why was I like that um okay these are the feelings I'm having like like I'm just scared like I've just got I'm carrying some fear into this and why am I like scared and it probably goes full circle back to what my mum said to me like

The only person that really cares whether you turn up and have a go is you.

And you're the only person that feels that.

The rest of it is inconsequential to the grand scheme of life, whether you win or lose.

All those things don't matter.

So I guess that always rolls around in my mind.

And then it's just about, okay, next time when I get this opportunity, I'll just try and, like, be a little bit better.

And I spent the whole week doing that.

And by Friday I was, like, a bit better.

But I was, like, still, like, okay, it's just been a tough week.

And that's okay.