Emily McDonald

And I think that I couldn't have that mindset back then.

Otherwise, I wouldn't have been able to overcome that mindset to get to where I am to now be helping people, other people through it.

So I had to have that mindset of, you know, God is evil and life sucks and you just can't control what happens to you at all.

Like life, you're just leaf in the wind.

Whatever happens, happens.

You know, I had to have that mindset at one point in order to get to this point.

Yeah.

Late

undergrad when I was in maybe my senior year I had birthed this dream of you know going I took a class on the neurobiology of drug addiction and we read a paper about why the current treatments don't work and immediately light bulb goes off in my head because the current treatments at least at this point didn't work because they were ending drug addiction or to preventing relapse to drug addiction okay

The reason why they didn't work was because they were only putting band-aids on symptoms rather than actually targeting the real problem.

Right.

And so that immediately resonated with me because all of the illnesses that I had had and everything that I was dealing with, it was things that we don't know the root.

We can only treat your symptoms.

And so immediately this dream was born within me of, oh, I'm going to go to my PhD and I'm going to study drug addiction and I'm going to cure drug addiction and I'm going to win a Nobel Prize.

And I don't know.

I mean, I've always been a little crazy.

So that was, that was the dream.

And then after that, realizing that, okay, I need to go on this journey and do the work on myself to be able to get into that position, because obviously that's a huge dream.

And if I'm going to make that happen, I'm going to need to be the better version of myself.

And so I started, you know, I would say I started meditating and doing those things more with the mindset of