Emma Chamberlain

Now back to the episode.

Let's dive into me as a person.

Let's dissect me so that you can understand why rest is so hard for me, okay?

To start, I am very anxious and I'm an overthinker, okay?

This is just who I am, but being anxious and being an overthinker makes rest really challenging because you know what an anxious overthinker does when they're resting?

They ruminate, they overthink, they overanalyze.

They have the time to spiral about something.

So part of me wonders if I sort of have a fear of rest in a way because I'm like, oh, if I rest, like I know my mind will run amok, I'm going to have unpleasant thoughts.

Whereas if I keep myself distracted and active, I won't have as much time or energy to indulge in those uncomfortable, painful, irrational thoughts.

I think a lot of my sort of overactiveness is a response and perhaps a defense mechanism in a way.

Or not a defense mechanism.

Well, yeah, a defense mechanism.

It's a distraction from anxiety and overthinking.

Listen, I'm constantly working on my mindfulness to...

help with my anxiety and my overthinking, but the journey is ongoing.

I do not have it all figured out.

And there are times in my life where the thought of resting and allowing those thoughts to come in, it's just too much for me.

And I'm like, I just can't handle it right now.

There's too many other things going on in my life.

I don't want to sit with my thoughts right now.