Emma Chamberlain

I can't handle it.

I know that they're not going to be good.

And so I'm just going to keep myself busy and distracted so that I don't have to deal with

my anxieties and the things that I could overthink.

The next trait that I have is that I'm a perfectionist.

I am rarely satisfied.

There's always more that could be done in every single category of my life.

Work, myself, like my personal self, like my physical being even.

chores around the house, everything.

Nothing is ever perfect to me.

And there are times when I get wrapped up in my perfectionism and I believe the myth that there is a sort of perfect that I'm striving for that I could reach.

And so I'm working with this idea of perfection in my subconscious that I'm not even fully aware of.

And if I were to bring it to the forefront of my mind, I would realize, oh, wait, I probably should stop sooner than I am, right?

I probably should allow myself to consider things to be complete sooner so that I can rest and enjoy the fruits of my labor.

But

my default is to never be satisfied, for things to never be quite right, for things to always require more work, putting me in a state where the to-do list never ends, right?

And when you're existing in a state like that, it's like, well, I can't rest.

My to-do list is not done.

But if you're a perfectionist, it's like, yeah, well, the to-do list never ends.

And that's not healthy.