Emma Louise

simply just for the end of suffering the kind of suffering that led me to this like massive shift that I had you know and I realized that if I could do that then living would just it would be beautiful you know I would actually be living and I feel like that you know has happened which is good what was the shift what are you talking about this referring this sudden shift

Yeah.

I mean, I feel like I had this like beast in me.

And I don't know where it came from, you know, like, but basically, whenever I wasn't writing music, or

when I didn't have like something to show, I would just start just burning up.

It was like, if I couldn't do that, then what was the point of being alive, you know?

And so I would go through these cycles and it was all very isolating, lock myself away and for like weeks trying to write.

And, but I was suffering so much.

And then, and then it would get to this point

Where I was like, you know, I wanted to not be here anymore.

And then that happened like a few times in my early 20s.

But then, yeah, around 2018, I moved to LA.

I was even more isolated and there was like a lot more pressure.

And I just really sly like everything.

And I knew that I...

was not safe from this thing you know and so i actually checked myself into a like a hospital and then i was like in this hospital with you know other people who truly were the most sane beautiful open soft wonderful people and

And then, you know, I got out.

Actually, there was a piano in the lobby and that's actually where I wrote, I started writing one of the songs.

And then, yeah, when I got out, everything was different.

Yeah.