Erin Holland

I'm still going to be very highly watched and scanned.

And there's going to be a lot of attention once

The pregnancy becomes conducive with life, which happens after around 23 weeks.

None of this is still straightforward.

And I just honestly don't have the words to explain what this is like.

And my heart just seriously goes out to everybody who is still on their journey, in the midst of their journey, even dealing with the scars of pregnancy.

their journey post the fact because I don't think they ever go away so I think you always carry that little card of the infertility club and as soon as we speak about it which is why I've always tried to be as open as I can about the failings for want of a better word that I've had in my journey is that there are so many of us who go through it and all you have to do is just speak

to the people around you and everyone has a story it is so much more common than we think and if i could hold it together enough to actually have a public conversation that might help somebody then that's the least i can do and it kind of made some of the pain feel a little bit more worth it coming up erin shares the advice she would give to anyone struggling with fertility

to that first checkpoint that I haven't even really considered.

The parenthood side, it's almost been like a, we don't count your chickens before they've even remotely hatched sort of a situation.

But obviously, given my husband and I are based in two different cities for work, there's been conversations that have had to happen.

Where are we going to primarily live?

How is this going to work?

When I go back to work, who's got – all of those things that we're only just starting to have those conversations now because you genuinely feel like you're going to jinx it.

And I've tried to never put my life on hold, as I said last episode, to try and –

to create a life.

I didn't want to stop living the life that I had.

But infertility robs you of your mind, your soul, your body, your spirit, your money, like everything goes into it.

I think I always knew it was going to be very mentally taxing.

I didn't realize how physically taxing it would be and how much time it was going to take away from your life.