Erin Holland

Maybe once I hit the 30-week mark.

I like the three in front of it.

Well, you're almost there, babe.

You're almost there.

Very close.

I think by the time this comes out, very close.

Everybody knew except for my husband.

But I think that's so right.

And given the journey that we've been on and the fact that the only way that I've gotten through is by dissociating, to be honest.

And I've really not even believed that it's true.

and it's happening, I think hopefully that will help me start connecting in a way that I haven't been able to.

And now it's out in the world and everyone's coming up and sharing excitement or, you know, and you can imagine the DMs because like what is so tragic about sharing an IVF journey in real time is you realise how many others are walking the same path as you.

For the messages and I'm so grateful for the joy from people who still haven't experienced it.

Even getting this far.

But it's so just terribly sad how many people are going through it as well.

So I think for that reason, maybe finding out the gender this time will actually help me specifically bond.

And seeing Ben finally...

pull down some of those walls that he's put up for such a long time.

He's a very stoic, very pragmatic, very measured sort of person.

And I think cricket teaches you that because gentlemen's sport, they can't have a lot of feelings on the field.