Fergus Farrell

But then I failed and it really just, I suffered more so

after the road than I did after getting out of the NRH.

Day by day, step by step.

But ultimately, after about a year of really fighting, trying to get out of this dark hole I was in, I managed to, for the first time in this whole journey, I put my hand up and asked for help.

Simple as.

And I went to my local doctor and he helped me.

He gave me antidepressants and ultimately they didn't work with me because of the clash with other tablets I was on with.

But then I went back to him and said, look, Philip, it's not working.

He put me inside.

He got me into counselling.

I had five or six sessions of counselling.

I was back.

I realised, you know, what was going on.

I started looking at life in a completely different way in terms of looking at what I did rather than what I didn't do, which I should have been...

better at because I am definitely one of the things I learned from the NRH was to appreciate everything you can do rather than being envious of everything you can't do.

That's a good question, Clare.

Actually, it hasn't really.

Exactly.

It hasn't really.

No, I'm in a really good place, you know.