Jackie's Diary

He was an enthusiastic teacher. He was sort of charismatic. He was very sort of wanted to be in with the kids.

He was an enthusiastic teacher. He was sort of charismatic. He was very sort of wanted to be in with the kids.

It was my 16th birthday that he, yeah, he gave me a big kiss on the lips. He'd have his arm around you a lot. He would come up close. You would sit on his lap. Like it was normalized as a kind of congenial, I don't know, brother, father figure, maybe not father. But until it became, until he was like kissing you on the lips. And I also have a photo of him

It was my 16th birthday that he, yeah, he gave me a big kiss on the lips. He'd have his arm around you a lot. He would come up close. You would sit on his lap. Like it was normalized as a kind of congenial, I don't know, brother, father figure, maybe not father. But until it became, until he was like kissing you on the lips. And I also have a photo of him

holding me and dipping me in a big dance move.

holding me and dipping me in a big dance move.

We were 16 and smoking and drinking and stuff like that.

We were 16 and smoking and drinking and stuff like that.

And then as time went on, he began to realize that he was prone to fits of anger. He would yell. He would throw kids out of band. He would threaten to take them off trips. So then I remember being thankful I was on the good side of that. Because I was a very good student. I was a decent musician, I guess.

And then as time went on, he began to realize that he was prone to fits of anger. He would yell. He would throw kids out of band. He would threaten to take them off trips. So then I remember being thankful I was on the good side of that. Because I was a very good student. I was a decent musician, I guess.

Oh my God, it's horrifying to read what stuff I wrote.

Oh my God, it's horrifying to read what stuff I wrote.

My next door neighbor kept a diary and I thought it was kind of cool. And so I started keeping a diary. was one of those little brown ones with the teeny little key. And I wrote in it in my little pencil. But anyways, it was about boys I liked and how much I weighed and what I wore to school and what marks I got and how my best friend was mad at me and, you know, just teenage stuff.

My next door neighbor kept a diary and I thought it was kind of cool. And so I started keeping a diary. was one of those little brown ones with the teeny little key. And I wrote in it in my little pencil. But anyways, it was about boys I liked and how much I weighed and what I wore to school and what marks I got and how my best friend was mad at me and, you know, just teenage stuff.

And then, luckily, I wrote a lot about the culture of the band and what was happening and how Walker would take us out for dinner and buy us all drinks. And we were 15, 16, 17.

And then, luckily, I wrote a lot about the culture of the band and what was happening and how Walker would take us out for dinner and buy us all drinks. And we were 15, 16, 17.

And then I included a lot of these details about Walker.

And then I included a lot of these details about Walker.

So I noticed personally that there was some sort of close relationship between them and that they would leave or come back together at lunchtime. and seemed to be inebriated. And he sort of smelled of alcohol. But you're in grade 10, beginning of 11. But yeah, it was very noticeable that he was with Rita. And I saw him kissing Rita when we were on our band trip to England.

So I noticed personally that there was some sort of close relationship between them and that they would leave or come back together at lunchtime. and seemed to be inebriated. And he sort of smelled of alcohol. But you're in grade 10, beginning of 11. But yeah, it was very noticeable that he was with Rita. And I saw him kissing Rita when we were on our band trip to England.