Jake Haendel

I started having these thoughts of back when we initially talked about freezing a sample and then it went immediately to, wait, do I actually want this? Because then what started happening was I started thinking about, well, wonder if I die and I don't know if she has a kid or if she does. Will she even tell the kid about me or give him my last name? And I started having all these thoughts.

I started having these thoughts of back when we initially talked about freezing a sample and then it went immediately to, wait, do I actually want this? Because then what started happening was I started thinking about, well, wonder if I die and I don't know if she has a kid or if she does. Will she even tell the kid about me or give him my last name? And I started having all these thoughts.

And then realizing, like, this should have really been thought out in a more careful way. And I didn't know what I want. And very quickly went through all these emotions. Next thing I know, it came. Didn't die. I assume it went into a urinal specimen cup. Now, why do I assume this? Because I have to go somewhere, and that's in the hospital room, so I don't know. But I had a feeling.

And then realizing, like, this should have really been thought out in a more careful way. And I didn't know what I want. And very quickly went through all these emotions. Next thing I know, it came. Didn't die. I assume it went into a urinal specimen cup. Now, why do I assume this? Because I have to go somewhere, and that's in the hospital room, so I don't know. But I had a feeling.

And without saying a word, she scurried out of the room, and two nurses come in to clean me up, I guess. I don't know. Check on me, make sure I'm still alive. They start talking to each other. I can't believe that just happened. That's rape. This is so wrong. And one says, what a dumb bitch. She thinks she can run this at Boston Cardiogenics and that will work. It doesn't work this way.

And without saying a word, she scurried out of the room, and two nurses come in to clean me up, I guess. I don't know. Check on me, make sure I'm still alive. They start talking to each other. I can't believe that just happened. That's rape. This is so wrong. And one says, what a dumb bitch. She thinks she can run this at Boston Cardiogenics and that will work. It doesn't work this way.

And I'm kind of like, oh, that's where it's going. You know?

And I'm kind of like, oh, that's where it's going. You know?

It's my wife, you know. I had a conversation with someone about this. And this was like back when I didn't think it was as bad as it was. And someone said to me, well, can you imagine if this was a woman in the hospital bed and you did this? And, yeah, I mean, as soon as I heard that, I'm like, well, that definitely wouldn't fly. No way. Cops swatting, like, they'd shoot you, bro. Why is that?

It's my wife, you know. I had a conversation with someone about this. And this was like back when I didn't think it was as bad as it was. And someone said to me, well, can you imagine if this was a woman in the hospital bed and you did this? And, yeah, I mean, as soon as I heard that, I'm like, well, that definitely wouldn't fly. No way. Cops swatting, like, they'd shoot you, bro. Why is that?

Different man versus woman, it should be the same. And, like, that's when I realized, when someone phrased it to me, can you imagine if this was reverse roles, different sexes, and you did this to your wife? Yeah, I was like, yeah. Definitely rape, you know, regardless of marital status.

Different man versus woman, it should be the same. And, like, that's when I realized, when someone phrased it to me, can you imagine if this was reverse roles, different sexes, and you did this to your wife? Yeah, I was like, yeah. Definitely rape, you know, regardless of marital status.

Again, hard to gauge time, but what felt like two to four hours, she came back and said, everyone else not viable have to do it again. Again, nursing was, like, freaking out. They were complaining to doctors. I could, like, hear to this. And this kept going on for what I say felt like 17 days a few times a day.

Again, hard to gauge time, but what felt like two to four hours, she came back and said, everyone else not viable have to do it again. Again, nursing was, like, freaking out. They were complaining to doctors. I could, like, hear to this. And this kept going on for what I say felt like 17 days a few times a day.

And it got to the point where my wife, I remember this, she complained that nursing kept coming in the room. And we needed our privacy. And she wanted a sign to go on the door. I do not deserve even a heart monitor going off when this was happening. I think the logic was, like, he's gonna die by Christmas anyway. I gotta get this. I need this. I need the semen, man. Like, before it dies.

And it got to the point where my wife, I remember this, she complained that nursing kept coming in the room. And we needed our privacy. And she wanted a sign to go on the door. I do not deserve even a heart monitor going off when this was happening. I think the logic was, like, he's gonna die by Christmas anyway. I gotta get this. I need this. I need the semen, man. Like, before it dies.

I need it. I need it. I'm thinking of, like, a Dave Chappelle skit. Like, I need it, man. It's my crack.

I need it. I need it. I'm thinking of, like, a Dave Chappelle skit. Like, I need it, man. It's my crack.

I now know it was a very big deal in this journal. I meet MJ's lawyers, ethics committee, doctors were all involved apparently. Now my wife is a very convincing individual and I'm sure she, you know, explained that this is what I wanted.

I now know it was a very big deal in this journal. I meet MJ's lawyers, ethics committee, doctors were all involved apparently. Now my wife is a very convincing individual and I'm sure she, you know, explained that this is what I wanted.