James Helm
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155 appearances
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first heard May 2025
last heard May 2025
James Helm’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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His social anxiety had gotten pretty bad, and because of that, he was having a hard time with his presentations in class. Then on top of everything, it seemed like his homicidal thoughts had gotten worse.
By February 2012, James was still happy and in love with his girlfriend Gargi. For Valentine's Day, he even set up this nice evening together. He lit candles in his apartment, he bought her carnations, and he cooked her a nice chicken dish. Then, after they watched Netflix together...
For James, the relationship was going so well, he even sent an email to his parents telling them about his girlfriend and the Valentine's Day they spent together. But Gargi wasn't feeling the same. She would later say that over the Christmas break, she had started questioning her relationship with James.
From the beginning, she told him that she didn't want anything serious, that she was just interested in a casual relationship. But over time, James' feelings were growing stronger.
was clear that he liked her way more than she liked him so that month she asked james if they could pull back the reins a little bit she didn't want him completely out of her life she was even still okay with having a sexual relationship with one another but she didn't exactly want to be boyfriend and girlfriend and not wanting to lose her james agreed to be friends with benefits
but he would later say that this was a huge loss for him. Afterwards, he became even more depressed and said, my mind was kind of falling apart. One day, he opened up his journal and wrote that he had lost his last battle with biology, his last battle of falling in love.
But before their session, James would participate in some typical college activities. On March 17th, he and Gargi went to a bar to celebrate St. Paddy's Day. While there, everyone was drinking and having a good time, including James. That is, until a guy walked up to Gargi. Now, keep in mind, they are no longer together. But upon seeing this, James got upset. He even confronted the guy.
But Gargi quickly shut that down. She told him, We are not boyfriend and girlfriend, so you can't control who I talk to. And James was upset about this. A few days later, on March 21st, he would have his first session with Dr. Fenton. Here's her talking about her first impression of him.
I don't have relationships with people. They have relationships with me.
My OCD symptoms are the worst they have been. The solution to the biological problem is eliminating the problem, homicide. But you can't kill everyone, so it's not an effective solution.
No.
No.
No, I wouldn't hurt myself.
However, she couldn't have been more wrong. Following their appointment, James wrote in his notebook. He wrote that in these therapy sessions, he would continue deflecting any incriminating information. He also kept talking to his ex Gargi. He told her that he was doing poorly in his classes, that he skipped an assignment, and that his professor got pissed off at him.
Then, during one conversation, James started talking to Gargi about how valuable life is. He said that taking someone's life away took away their experiences, memories, and their potential. But then he went on to say that taking someone's life gave you human capital. Gargi said, what do you mean by that? How do you get human capital from taking someone's life?
And James said, you'll have a more meaningful life. So his girlfriend asked, well, if taking someone's life adds more to your life, then why don't you kill me? And James said, if I did that, I would get caught and then I couldn't go kill more people.
But he went on to say that he wasn't inherently evil and that going to kill people was his plan B. On March 25th, he and Gargi had the following text conversation. Well, what I feel like doing is evil, so can't do that. What do you feel like doing? Video games are the next best thing through escapism.
Kill people, of course.
That's why you kill many people.
My OCD symptoms, the thoughts of killing people, haven't changed. And my anxiety is pretty much the same too. I took the Klonopin before my lab because I was anxious about it, but it didn't help. It just made me really tired. I don't want to take it anymore.
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