James Sexton

I was like, I'm just going to be around this.

I want to be around this.

I want to not be afraid of it.

And I started doing it.

I found it very life affirming to the point where then I did what's called vigil volunteering, which is when people don't have family and they're in like a nursing home or a facility and they're imminently dying, meaning they're like unconscious.

Because, you know, we have this insane, because we don't spend any time with people that are dying.

We have this bizarre Hollywood version of death where it's like, I loved you all.

And then we like fall, you know, or like, we just like fall asleep.

And death does not look like that.

Like people, you know, like it's, and when you talk to people who have a dying family member on hospice, like they're like, oh, it's not that they died.

They died without dignity.

And it's like, oh, he died the way people die.

Like you, they shut down.

The machine doesn't know to stop.

It keeps going.

Yeah, it's rough.

Oh, please.

My mom, like I remember thinking like, oh God, is this how I'm gonna remember her?

Like 70 pounds yellow and curled up like an insect, unconscious and breathing in this like horrifying, like something out of a movie.

Thank God the answer is no.